im in school.
i just finish mmy Worldskills class.
im waiting for 2pm and go dance practice.
3.45pm meet fatanah and go visit Sabil at SGH.
today his operation.
get well soon sabil.
maybe im going Post bar tomorrow for training at 2pm.
im still memorising the beer,wine,champagne and etc.
its not that hard but its too many.
yesterday,im sick again.
im vomitting. headache and diarrhoe AGAIN.
im sick to be like this lar.
yesterday im no fasting.
today,muaybe im not fasting.
my body is to weak...!
aaarrrrgggghh!!!
why is this happen to me...?
i will go for my 3rd check up after hari raya.
i just hope nothing serious happen to me.
im scared.
im scared if i have to go forever; im not ready.
im not ready to leave my mum alone, zinnie, babes and people arnd me.
bt everyone will die.
readers, if im gone. i just wanna say sorry for all my mistakes that i have done and pls forgive me.
why im talking like tis...??
i always asked,what if i die..?
what happen to my mum..?
how her life will be without me?
hows zinnie life..?
without me..?
is she able to find another friend that same like me..?
will she..?
hows my babes..?
will they cry..?
although we onli know for few months but our friendship is strong..
will they miss my laughter..?smile..?jokes...??craziness...??
oh god, im scared and im not ready.
i dun want to see my mum cry.
i love her so much.
she`s my everything.
i can`t bear to lose her and see her tears.
mum, i love you so much!
and no one can replace you in my heart.
ok readers, i need to go and memorise my things.
wish me all the best..

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im in school right now.
today will be my last post becuase today is my last day in school.
i will be coming back to school on 11 oct.
today im sick again, headache and feel lyke vomitting.
i got training at Fullerton hotel at 4pm tomorrow with amirah.
i will be staying at home the next day and do house chores.
on friday,i have to go school because of dance meeting and its a compulsory.
saturday will be staying at home also and take care my niece and nephew.
and sunday is HARI RAYA.
first of all,i would like to say, SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.
please forgive all my mistakes that i have done to you guys.
about my shatec school, i will finish up my nitec then 2011 i will be goin shatec and spent my 2 years there.
oklah people. anything u can just check out my facebook.
once again,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

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about my sickness. i have went to polyclinic last friday.
as usual stomach cramps and bad headache.
now, medicine is my bestfriend.
whenever i go,i have to bring my medicine along.
i really hope i will fit like last time.
i never expect i have to depends to medicine to be fit.
i cant eat anything that had a curry powder and also spicy food.
i have to eat more vegetables.
i have to sleep early and also not to go any crowded places andyar,i cnt be stress.
i dunno why this happen to me.
i told my manager about my sickness,she said its fine if i have to eat my medicine during working hours.
haizz.
i was wondering how should i work at fullerton.
5 days straight without rest.
people,pls pray that i will get will soon.
the doctor said,i was suspected appendix.
anytime i will get diarrhoe and after i had my meal,sometimes i need to vomit.
medicine and medicine.
i tried to get rid of eating any medicine coz of ovrdose thingy.
but now..haiizzz...
im sick and tired with this sickness.
while i was typing,i got a headache oready.
pray for me. =)

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hye.. suddenly i have make up mind.i want to quit the courese that currently i took. i would like to go Shatec and take diploma in pastry and baking. it cost about S$7000+..bt yar. wen i tink back,i regret taking this course. i dun know. frm today onwards,i have to save money. i really hope my dream will come true. now,no more boyfriend untill i really cn get in shatec. i got a job so its tyme for me to work and work. =)

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im not feeling well today.
im having a bad headache.
i still force myself to go school becuase today is web design dateline and world skills training.
he still haven`t confirm with me about today`s plan.
i didn`t have a good sleep the whole night.
messages disturbed my sleep.
tomorrow`s plan is confirm. wazzup party.
i only drink a glass of water for my pre-dawn meal.
and then i cried infront of my mum coz i cant bear the headache.
wake up at 6.25am but then reset alarm clock back at 7.25am.
woke up and still headache.
im late for school.
took a taxi from tampines mall to go school.
what a wasted of $3.80.
i have finish up my assignment and now waiting for mr ethan approval.
although in pain,im still smiling. =)
i gtg now.
take care.
btw,tomorrow i got training at jurong bird park.
i really hope my headache will go away.
=)

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helo!!!
as usual,im in school if not how i update my blog rite??
hahahaha.
im happy + angry.
yana and i plan to go wazzup party this saturday but khairul didnt allowed her to tag along wen we go town...wth??? if u cn bring ur friends along den why cant i...????
and im happy coz i know dat you going to call me once you finished your exams and its true....u make my day...i cant wait to break fast with you tomorrow...!!!!!
hehehehe.....

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im so bored and sleepy in this animation class.
today is my first day learning animation using maya.
and itz like ZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...........!!!!!!!!!
BORING!
i was facebooking from just now.

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People come and go and that goes to you my dear.
I lied if i told you that i don`t love you anymore.
i can`t forget you and i dunno why.
Come on Safwana,life still have to go on.
The day you propose to me,i was happy but we can`t go on.
You are someone else boyfriend.
Oh dear. if only you are single, maybe we are happy together now.
Although sometimes we argue little things but that make us to be more closer.
Oh love, why is this happen to me?
Why you sent him to me if you know that it won`t last.
Im weak.YES. Im weak.
Im weak with love.
When it comes to love, I can`t think of anything.
Day and night I keep thinking of you.
Oh dear.please forgive me because i didn`t accept you but that doesn`t mean i hate you.
Am i that bad? why i fall with someones boyfriend?
I don`t want to take you away from her because someday, someone will take you away from me or maybe, take me away from you.
If only you read my post then you will understand, how much i love you and i need you in my life.
"will you be my gf?" yes i will. but i can`t said it.
Im still waiting for your decision.
Im scared because i know you will leave me.
We have known each other on 16 may 2009.
YES! The day before my birthday,i remembered.
Our friendship going to 5 months.
The day we had a big arguement, i cried the whole night because i really don`t want to lose you.
You used to said this,"if i really want it,i will overcome everything just to get what i want." does that goes to your love also?
i didn`t know how much you love me.
You didn`t express your feelings to me.
Tup.Tup. Suddenly you said,"wana, you want to be my gf?"
I thought you just make fun of it but things get serious the next day.
Yar. its true. Untill when we should go on like this?
I have the answer..
Untill you you break with your gf.
I don`t try to be meant but what for you still go on if you are m-not happy with her.
You said that im different from your gf?
What is the difference?
It just that im soft-spoken and she`s not..?
I treat you well and she`s not...?
Is it?
Maybe our thinking and attitude is different.
Thats all.
I don`t want to pretend good but im not Safwana that some people used to know.
I have changed.
If you are really for me then i will just wait the day to come.
Dear, i love you.
I will always wait for you to come to me.
Take care dear.
Make a good decision.
I don`t want to force you.
Im safee and this is my love story.