im in school.
i just finish mmy Worldskills class.
im waiting for 2pm and go dance practice.
3.45pm meet fatanah and go visit Sabil at SGH.
today his operation.
get well soon sabil.
maybe im going Post bar tomorrow for training at 2pm.
im still memorising the beer,wine,champagne and etc.
its not that hard but its too many.
yesterday,im sick again.
im vomitting. headache and diarrhoe AGAIN.
im sick to be like this lar.
yesterday im no fasting.
today,muaybe im not fasting.
my body is to weak...!
aaarrrrgggghh!!!
why is this happen to me...?
i will go for my 3rd check up after hari raya.
i just hope nothing serious happen to me.
im scared.
im scared if i have to go forever; im not ready.
im not ready to leave my mum alone, zinnie, babes and people arnd me.
bt everyone will die.
readers, if im gone. i just wanna say sorry for all my mistakes that i have done and pls forgive me.
why im talking like tis...??
i always asked,what if i die..?
what happen to my mum..?
how her life will be without me?
hows zinnie life..?
without me..?
is she able to find another friend that same like me..?
will she..?
hows my babes..?
will they cry..?
although we onli know for few months but our friendship is strong..
will they miss my laughter..?smile..?jokes...??craziness...??
oh god, im scared and im not ready.
i dun want to see my mum cry.
i love her so much.
she`s my everything.
i can`t bear to lose her and see her tears.
mum, i love you so much!
and no one can replace you in my heart.
ok readers, i need to go and memorise my things.
wish me all the best..

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