everything is about misunderstanding.
luqman n i going to turn to a new leaf.
we going to start from scratch.
i hope everything will get better.
i admit.i still love him.
we give each other one more chance.
i hope it will last.

today,20 december.
i still love you luqman.

my dear friends.
maybe some of u will said im dumb n stupid.
but..sometimes..i,myself..
can`t even lied to myself.
i knw.i have been trying to be strong n forget him.
i did but i cn`t forget him.
i knw..you guys dun want to see me cry but to forget him,
its hurt me too.
i feel like..im lost.
i dun want to get hurt wen im with him but
at the same time,i dun want to get hurt coz i need to forget him.
im sorry if i hurt anyone of you.
you can talk bad about me.
but this is the reality.
communication need in every relationship.
and misunderstanding is a need to get rid of.
=D

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went to fullerton hotel just now.
i booked work next week on tuesday,wednesday n thursday.
work at 6pm.
monday will be re-confirm again.
actually..i dunno wat to post.
hehe.
nvmn..
i post the next day.

akasya comel! hehe. =D

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today is my most happiest day with my 2 bitches,faiz n his fwen.
this is what happen wen someone keep saying.."yar..i knw how to play roller-blade"
but end up..injurt.
hahaha.
i really injurt my knee badly.
can`t walk properly.
its totally pain.
i feel lyke crying.
thanks asidah n ayeen for patience with me just nw.

i told nad n sap.
see how tomorrow.
coz fir this time being,i can`t dance at all.

i told zaty bout this.
she laughed n laughed.
thanks sis. =D

i told akasya.
he so sweet.
he said,if only he was with me.
he will put some oil n "urut".
den he said..put some ice.
going to do dat later.
lets wait for him to online n see what happen.
hahaha

overall...im happy.
asidah n ayeen..
you know i know,public dunno.
his cute...!
hahahaha.
btw..asidah was so excited n told me dat,dat guy is single.
hahahaha.
i dunno why she told me but yar..
hahaha
i really enjoyed myself.

BIG SMILE!!!!!!

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lots of things to say.
but i will just make it as short n simple.
i have move on.
i have move on.
and yeah. i have move on.
no turning back.
sick and tired.
adi sound me.
i reject him.
i have to.
im not prepared to have new boyfriend.
i know.u understand me so much.
but..im sorry..
my life is upside down right now.
im going to chalet.
i asked my mum.
she angry.
and dun want to talk to me.
she said,i can go wherever i want.
i will ask my dad about chalet thingy.
i hope.
plan wanna go dxo.
but dunno whether dan conferm or not.
30 bucks.
bring me safely dan.
hahaha.
thats all i want to say.

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nothing to say.
im sick again.
i just vomitted.

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i just woke up.
so dam tired.
mum cooked nasi lemak..!
yeah...
im going to clean up my room..
my room in totally mess..
talked with luqman yesterday.
we are close friend and nothing more.
=D
its good la although we broke up but we still in good term.

supposed to talk with hydir
but he didn`t called.
i dun know wat happen.
hahaha.

okayla.
update more later before my mum start to scream.

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im bored.
i swear im bored.
luqman called me just now.
when i saw his name at my phone screen,
my heart beat pump so fast.
i dunno y.
guess wat..
i got diarrhoe..(again)
all becaus eof eating disorder.
arrgghh..!
i should get back on track.
i should not skip any meals..!
stupid wana!
hahaha.
but i lose weight okay..?

mummy called n said bout working at fullerton.
im scared dat asidah won`t get this job coz they dun want any more female staff.
im just a lucky girl coz my aunty is a manager dere.
haah.
but this time.im going to be serious with this job.
because i really need money.
need money to buy my dream shoe..!!!!!
arrggghh..!!
i plan to get by end of this year.
really..

chat with hydir now.
he ajak me go club.
haha.
i want to go.
atleast one time.
both of us so boring coz we not goin zoukout.
and its lyke so obvious i can`t go.
damn!
im so sad.
hydir..go with me on my bday kae??
lame per.
hahaha.
okay la..
i gtg.
hydir want to talk on the phone wit me.

today,12th december.
im a happy girl.

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WHAT IS SPLIT PERSONALITY?

-A split personality is when a person can be two different personalities at one time. On occasion they can appear nice, helpful, a good friend or even a good lover and without warning they could become selfish, arrogant and cruel. They flip back and forth between the two personalities.

im so curious about split personality.
so i decided to researched bout it.
i just suspect someone have a split personality.
i don`t know..maybe.

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i just reach home.
as usual..
im in bad mood the moment i step in this house.
i dunno why.
hmmm...
after dance meeting,went to e!hub with sapool,ika n ryzal.
sapool..i should listen to ur advice..
thanks for making me smile..
fifty-nine dollars..!!
hahahaha..
im happy i meet you guys just now.
if dan was dere..
hahaha.
nisa darling called me.
guess wat..??
maybe im going to watch netball tomorrow..!!!!!!
wohooo..!!!
this will be totally great..!!!!!!
can`t wait for tmrw...
i can`t wait for chalet..
it will so much fun...

gess wat..
im planning for my 20th bday.
hahaha.
i knw it so fast.
but i want it to be a great bday party..!

today.11th december.
i started to be a strong girl.
&& move on.

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i just woke up.
and here i am.
infront of my lappy.
haha.
i feel relax whenever im online.
i dunno why..
blog is the only place that i can let it all out.
i still miss him.
im losing him bcoz of my stupid actions.
i give u a 2nd chance to be with me.
but u didn`t give me a 2nd chance to let me change.
wana..!stop talking bout it..!

whatever la.
this is my life.
i still have to go on as per normal.
people said,single is better.
yeah its true.
but this is the first time,im enjoying attached.
the first time i knw him..
i beleive his the one.
like myza said..
maybe he just a passerby in your life.


today,11th december.
wana miss luqman.

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its really weird when you make friend with your enemy`s brother.
hahhahaahhaa..
hey boy...your big brother is my friend now..!!!
hahahaa
dun you dare to give me your sarcastic face like dat day in a lift..
hahahahhaha..
too bad...
evil nye aku..
hahaha..

okay2..
supposingly..
i have to go school today.
although its not compulsory bt its good for our portfolio.
den...im still sick.
and bangon lmbt.
ryzal msged me and told me about performance on 5th jan at ite machperson.

i can`t wait to get my gpa.
haiishh..
conferm drop sey.
sad.sad.
from 4 point drop to......??
haissh.

boring sey pat umah.
nothing to do
just chat ngn shah.
he ajak go lepak.
malas nk kuar.
next tyme.
alah..
slalu per dh terserempak.
used to live same blk wit u.
slalu naek bus same2.
haha.
klakar sey.

nanti blog lagi.

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had a good chatting with zack.
thanks zack.
dun forget,chill in school together once school reopen.
my treat bro.
hahaha.
we chat lots of things.
from guy to girl.
and then bout graduate.
whats the next plan after ite.
zack said..im goin ns..
hahahaa.. thanks uh..!
hahaha.
nice knowing u.
n i won`t regret have a friend like you.
=D

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a msged from him.
"My dear..i want to apologise if my words were harsh.but i have too.it was for your own good.looks like we were never meant to be.thankiew for the wonderful memories that we shared and had together.i want to apologise for everything i had done to u.i want to thank u for all the support u gave to me.i wish u all the best in life.and i passed my FTT."

im speechless.
i cried whe i read this msg.
maybe its true.
we are not meant to be together.
thanks for you support to me also.
memories.
everything.
we know each other on 1st november.
we talked a lot.
we talked about star.
what a coincidence,
we like green colour.
green tea.
dance (maybe)
cook.
my dream is to go shatec.
i won`t forget,you said that you will wait for me at shatec.
you bring me to meet all your friends.
our first date that we met at clementi.
our first holding hand.
our first kiss.
baby.
sayang.
mummy.
im gonna miss all that.
im going to miss the smell of you.
the laughter.
the tears.
do you remember when the aunty accidentaly touched your butt.
and then,i shout.."hello!!oi..!!"
you paid my taxi fare.
i came over your house.
tiramisu.
that was totally nice.
but everything is past.
it just a memories between both of us.
today..luqman hakim and i was just a friend.
our love story have come to the end.
this will be the last post about my love story with him.

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thanks nad for the rose.
appreciate it alot.
thanks everyone.
ikadjon.
shikin.
zinnie.
yana.
nad.
zaty.
asidah.
ayeen.
everyone..!!!

today 9th december 2009.
i,safwana have broke up with luqman hakim.
im a strong girl.
i will live my life as per normal.
i believe, this is all what they called life.
guys come and go.
once they gone, i learn from it.
okay?
hehehe.

talked to that someone yesterday.
im shocked that you still like me.
really.
i thought when we lost contact, you will forget me and already moved on.
but NO..you are still the same.
and still waiting.
im sorry.
but i already move on.

i got lots of plans in my mind.
shopping...!!
GIRLFRIEND!!!!!

-slim down
-shopping
-perm/rebond hair
-piercing. =D


hmmm...
some more....
hmmm...
dunno yet...

im really looking forwar for chalet..
PARTY PEOPLE...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DANCE THE WHOLE NIGHT..!!!

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im going to miss my senior.
especially dzul.
you helped me a lot this 1 year.
you pushed me.
you are the best senior n brother to me.
thank you.
all the best for your future senior.

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(CLICK TO ENLRGE IT)



im not depression.
i was just do some research on depression.

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one bad thing about me is..
i can`t stress..
once im stress..
i will keep thinking of doing stupid things.
and sometimes,when i can`t control it,i will faint.
my sickness is coming back.
and it scare me.
he called me and was so angry about my post at fb.
i admit.my fault.
im sorry.
i should not think such ways juz because of something happen.
i should be a strong girl.
my heart pain.
wairi said that im mentally and physically tired.
yeah.
zinnie was with when im down just now.
she saw my face changed and i vomitted infront of her while im talking to wairi.
i need a rest.
but i can`t rest that well.
i miss him.
and i love him.
please call me and talk to me.
i feel so down right now.
and i need you the most.
i feel like hugging and crying..
i need you now.
i need you badly.
my body is weak.
trust me.
im going to faint soon.

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im at home right now.
sis bought for me breakfast from Mcdonald.
gonna eat later.
im downloading photoshop brushes and fonts.
so that tonight i can do my poster.
i want to do 4 posters.
i can`t said,i want to do for who untill they received this poster.
hehehe
going to school later.
for dance practice.
i have to go early since i absent yesterday.
my target is..before sap,dan n ryzal come to dance studio.
i already memorise work it choreo.
hehehe.

today,b going to hotel and sign contract.
im happy for him.
love you b. =D

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i woke up early in the morning.
then i revised for my final year exam.
lil bit confident because of the whole night i studied.
hahaha.
sleepy and tired.
maybe im not going to dance today.
i need to rest my brain. hahaha.
coz tomorrow,i will be damn busy with dance pract.
maybe have to stayed latest by 9pm.
performance and competition is coming.
from tomorrow onwards..
i have to concentrate in my dance.
to remember all the steps.
yeahh..!
thats the spirit.
okay la.
gtg.
need to take shower.
then eat something before i proceed to school
bye people.
wish me all the best kae..?
coz i have to do well in this exam.
if not..
my 4 point will drop..
sad.sad.


oh yar..
about this sunday performance.
VENUE:HEEREN SHOPPING MALL
TIME SLOT GIVEN:5.45PM
DO COME AND SUPPORT ME!

next week onwards,i will be busy doing a website for my sister.
n yar..i will be doing my own layout for my blog.
*two thumbs up*

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